Sitting here staring at a blank page, I do feel quite justified in allowing my mind to drift. To daydream about the past. About popular culture in the 1980’s, and about my childhood. Because writing this entry for a project I have just completed, means so very much to me personally, that I have to be mindful of keeping to the point and showcasing my new project for Jane Badler, (singer and actress know for her portrayal of Diana in the Sci-Fi series V); but please indulge me, and allow for me to say – that if by some marvel of quantum mechanics, it was possible to travel back in time. Then I would surely pay my “V” obsessed adolescent self, a revelatory visit.
I didn’t know right there, in the middle of the 1980’s what it was that was ‘wrong’ with me but I was clearly different because other boys didn’t use their Sinclair ZX Spectrum Light Gun to run around corridors in the uninhibited throws of believing that they were Diana on-board a mother-ship, and neither did other boys pout after each cleverly delivered verbal put-down.
Oh how perplexing it was.“You’re nothing but a big girl’s blouse,” my granny would say in half veiled disgust and bewilderment – but what I had learned quickly; is that a boy, who put one hand upon his hip to retort to abuse with a quote from his favourite villainous alien Diana, got a swift punch in the stomach.
Certain late night TV programming in the 1980’s might have been brilliantly fantastical for children of a certain persuasion, (think Fallon being abducted by a UFO in The Colby’s to be dropped off again in Dynasty) but for a boy to openly and enthusiastically encourage other boys next day at school to re-enact Diana’s cat fighting with Lydia in their skin tight jumpsuits and massive perms, well it seemed somehow offensive and alarming to everyone around me, and it was one of the first times that I became aware that perhaps my natural spontaneity wasn’t for everyone.
I suppose my rather romanticised point is this –
The positivity, focus and awareness which we put into our individual lives, and how we process what happens to us, to filter that for the lesson, for the gift – it is a constant development and evolution which can open gates of knowing and experience as we grow, learn and evolve; As one admires, so can one attract – and when we operate from a truth vibration, that is to say our natural state, a core which never veers against the grain – then we will attract a karma that is compatible, relevant and tangible.
Those people, who persecute, abuse, who scorn, those who take, drain and empty us – they will eventually become the making of us, because dark and light is the dynamic friction on which the duality of nature spins its wheel of constant motion and evolution… and whether we choose to lead with love or fear, awareness or ignorance, it is a choice that only the individual can make.
I would like to thank Jane for trusting me, and everyone on board for their hard hard work. It was a brilliant shoot and we all made a great team…
Thank you for reading !